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I'm so so mad at you. Oh, wait a minute, maybe I'm mad at myself. I was so naive.....or maybe just too in love and too blind. But now I understand that we can’t waste too much time missing someone from the past. We must accept that life’s never constant, things change and people grow apart. Yet we can’t stop thinking about how good it used to be. I guess I was too afraid that I’d never experience it again, afraid that I’ve already lived it and lost it. But now I realized that it happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you’ve known forever don’t see things the way you do. So you keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on.
Maybe I'm too mad right now and probably I can't see the things as they truly are, but I know that you're not the same guy that I fall in love to. Oh damn, I'm so mad that I could hit my head into the wall.

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I love you. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I’ve ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours.

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.........

-Baby, let's make 12/12/12 very very special to us!!!

-Hahaha, you're crazy, how??

-well....we don't have enough time to get married, but......

-hey don't make me anxious, tell me 

-we can get engaged

-hahaha, you're very funny

-no, I mean it. *he kneels down* will you be my future wife? 

-*can't say a word* I guess so

.............

woop! 

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Everyone says the pain will get less as time passes, but I don't believe them. I think they only say it so you can face getting out of bed every day. You think 'today might be the day', but it never is. They say that you'll get used to be without him. You will get used to wait. Time will pass fast, they say. But all I know is that I have to go through this all by myself. Sometimes it seems too hard and I cry whole night. Sometimes I smile when I remember all the crazy things we did together. I wish I could be with you right now. I wish we could cuddle in the bed as we used to do.
Your voice is the best lullaby, baby. You are the best thing that ever happened to me. No matter how we will end.

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Nothing makes me happier and nothing makes me sadder than you.. 

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O taip ilgu, kad skauda kažkur ties kaire puse, kur mano ilgesys gyvena... Ir pešas mano mintys, ir mūšius rengia, ir man ramybės neduoda.. Džiaugsmo liepsneles gesina gesina. Nebe tokia tu, Egle, - tarė man praeities šešėliai.Argi būsi toks pat, kai VISKAS kitaip? Nutrauk siūlą, surišk - lyg ir gerai viskas, lyg ir toliau naudingas, bet mazgo nepaslėpsi.